The squat – a road to recovery

„Specialisation in a limited range of acts is the most difficult adjustment for humans to make.” – Moshé Feldenkrais

Summary: with my new series „From The Ground Up”, I fell freshly in love with the lessons inspired by Moshé Feldenkrais. However, I overworked my knees and felt some instability and discomfort. Therefore, I tried stability and strengthening exercises from the world of fitness. Turns out, in the light of my new series, I enjoy doing isolated exercises such as Tibialis Toe Raises, Hamstring Curls or Triceps Push Ups. In fact, with the background of Feldenkrais lessons these strengthening exercises make me feel quite  excited about exercising. My knees, legs and spine are on a road to recovery. As a result, my next video in this series will be a Somatic strengthening workout.

Allow me to bring your attention to three distinct ways to squat down. They look kind of similar, but are bio-mechanically distinct from each other.

Each of the squats start out in standing. Then the legs are bent in the knees, ankles and hip joints to lower the pelvis downwards.

In the first variant, the sit-bones are lowered to target the mid-foot, and the knees are driven forwards all the way to lean on the floor.

In the second variant, the sit-bones are lowered to target the back of the heels, while the knees are driven forward. This is the Asian squat (to the best of my ability as of now).

In the third variant, the sit-bones are lowered backwards to sit on the platform of a chair. The knees do not pass over the toes.

When I first opened my studio in Austria, in 2013, many of my clients presented with difficulties to sit down on a chair gracefully—and even more to come back up to standing again. Therefore, I focused mainly on this type of squat, where the head is the counter balance to the behind, and the behind searches for the chair, and the knees don’t travel forwards much. This is a movement that can be done even if the space between a table and a chair is very narrow. I also created a couple of Youtube videos about this type of squat-to-sit down and backwards on a chair.

So to speak, I focused solely and exclusively on this one way to squat down and back up, the squat to sit on a chair, and I focused all of my research and teaching on this.

However, slowly, over the years, and without me even noticing, I forgot about the other ways to squat down.

As a dire consequence, over the years, I felt stiffness creep into my back and knees and hip joints and toes… but I never thought much of it. Strangely enough, with stiffness in-and-around my joints came not only discomfort, but also instability. While one would think that stiffness inherently would make a joint more stable.

A passage written by Moshé Feldenkrais, from his book Body And Mature Behaviour, comes to mind. I paraphrase:

Specialisation in a limited range of acts is the most difficult adjustment for humans to make. For example, a strong teenager with perfect feet will find it difficult to stand still for long periods of time, whereas a flat-footed, old guard might find it easy. But the former can jump and run, while the latter suffers aches and pains in doing so.

In his book Moshé Feldenkrais added a second example to drive home his point. I paraphrase again:

If someone uses his eyes as people did in the past, for example to look at the horizon, at people in the distance, at the immediate environment, at his body and at his work, his eyes did go through the complete range of their capacity, and occasional ignorance of the proper use of his eyes had no chance to cause real harm.

However, when someone uses his eyes as we do nowadays, to focus on a smartphone or computer screen for hours on end, day after day, it puts an extreme demand on the eyes by excluding all functioning in favour of a particular act. Some muscles, as well as nerves and cells in the higher centres of the nervous system, are overworked, while others must be constantly inhibited. Only a few people who make such specialised use of their eyes will succeed in preserving good overall functioning, while most people will be unable to get normal service from their eyes in any other use.

We might hear people say that their incapacity is due to lack of exercise. But with this example we see that any training may be worse than no training at all; for the eyes that stare at screens do not lack exercise, yet the eyesight deteriorates steadily. The way we use our eyes to stare at screens adapts them most perfectly to this particular use only, but renders them almost useless for other purposes.

Butt back to the topic of squatting:

Kenneth Williams Interviews Stephen Fry

Just recently, in response to one of my dear patrons, I started a new Youtube series, which I called „From The Ground Up”. This series is comprised of lessons not often seen in public Feldenkrais classes. They are somewhat a bit more advanced, more demanding, a bit more exotic than what is usually taught to the general public. Or maybe, they are just stronger, like fruit sirup is stronger than fruit juice.

Historical note: the original theme that inspired me for this series is called „heels-under-pelvis” (not „knees-over-toes” as I mistakenly wrote in my last post), and has been taught and recorded by Moshé Feldenkrais around 1955, in his studio in Alexander Yanai Street in Israel, lesson numbers 190-197.

Link to the „From the Ground Up” series on Youtube

Much to my own surprise, with this new series I started to see all the things I’ve not been doing with my knees, my feet, my hip joints, and with my spine.
It was only with this new Youtube series „From The Ground Up”, that I remembered. And at the same time I came to realise in what a bad condition my knees, my toes, my hip joints, and my spine actually are.

I indeed think it was my limited and strongly specialised use of self, that led to my discomfort and limited range of motion. I always only squatted backwards, to sit on a chair, and almost never squatted down, to an Asian squat, or forwards, to kneel and sit on my heels. Unknowingly, I chose to limit my movements to particular patterns, and forgot about all the other options.

But this has changed now, thanks to my new series.

I think most of all, this new series gave me an inroad to myself again. It opened me up to work on myself again. It gave me a handle, a grip.

This series is the ear of a sticker that serves as the bit I can grab to peel the sticker off the sheet its stuck to.

This series is the spark that made me look around to see what others are doing. It is my encouragement to explore and to include strength training again. To do fitness exercises such as Hamstring Curls in the gym, or to do daily Tibialis Toe Raises, like I briefly did in my „Healthy Happy Feet” series, or Triceps Push Ups in between two chairs, or Nordic Curls and Reverse Nordic Curls at home with my feet stuck under my couch.

My new series leads me to try new things, and to move in ways I haven’t moved in years. It made the difference between lying down, sitting, standing, and walking smaller again.

It is the box of a puzzle that doesn’t miss single pieces. It is my red thread of Ariadne that leads me through the maze. It is my joy, my map, and with your ongoing support it is my calling.

I guess I’m in love with this new series.

p.s. The pelvis can not only go down, but also up. That would be Heel Raises in standing. It can be jumping. But the pelvis can also go left and right, and twist, and side bend, and we can do all that standing on one leg, or sitting on one butt-cheek, or while being upside-down in a headstand… and here we have the story of the thousands of lessons of Moshé Feldenkrais.

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Dearly missed (legs)

Wow, what a ride! How did we go from the film Casablanca to What’s Eating Gilbert Grape to Spider-Man?

Also, I like how George RR Martin wrote about vampires in his novel Fevre Dream. His vampires are not created by the blood of another vampire, but his vampires are a species of their own, truly carnivorous humanoids, who procreate through copulation. One of the characters of the book is the archetype of an age old vampire, Damon Julian, hundreds of years old, whose suffering of longevity is so great that it sucks you right into the dark pit that he has in place of a soul. Maybe cuddling with homo sapiens’ inability to cope with more than a few decades of existence is what made Deadpool (2) one of the highest-grossing films ever?

Now, legs. The two things down there that walk us from the living room to the kitchen. Or so they seem when I look at scientific studies about walking.

Enter my latest video series “From The Ground Up” on Youtube [link]. An update on how we think about our legs. Or probably, about ourselves, the deeper we get into this series.

From books and motivational movies I have concluded that a leg (or both) can be cut off and the patient can live just fine, be living very successfully and socially active even. Youtube showed me a radiantly happy person without arms and legs who became a motivational guru and millionaire, loved by everyone.

But that’s not what I have seen in real life.

I’ve traveled through Cambodia and I’ve seen what land mines did to people. And even less spectacularly so, I have learned from my own life, as well as my clients and immediate environment, that even a slight negligence, a minor disturbance in the use of the legs, seemingly insignificant shortcomings of the integration of the legs into the whole self, can have major impacts on the whole self. To use the legs properly, and joyfully, and creatively, can be the difference between someone who still climbs their apple trees in their garden at age 79, and someone who ages fast and falls into disability early.

Amputation and disability is the worst case scenario that would surely bring down most people. I guess only the strongest of the most resilient are able to cope with such loss.

But even less spectacularly so, fascia that does not slide to the best of their ability, even if it is just around the knees or ankles, undifferentiated movements of the arches of the feet or ankles, such seemingly small things, surely overlooked by most professionals and laymen alike, can put the strongest body into disability; and maybe then it’s not only that body that’s disabled, but it’s the soul that’s left in the dark, the soul that does not even know the reason for its suffering, and therefore is suffering the most.

How did we go from dancing wild and free to choreographed to isolated movement strength training?

Video credits:

California Jubilee in “Let’s Twist Again”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MggQSspSGU8

Twist, Twist |Beginner|Line Dance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IM_hXVBMm5I

Knee Range of Motion Solutions From The ATG System!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMRPJmkbSVI

Availability of movement

graceful
smooth
fluid

effortless
easily available
without or with little resistance

wrestled
hard-forced
not available

Impossible–but only from one perspective

I’ve been playing with these movements for two weeks now, and it still seems rather impossible to touch my knees to the floor. If it wasn’t for other people, I wouldn’t even think it possible.

Nowadays it seems like no big deal to take pictures of yourself. But when I started out doing Feldenkrais back in 2004, it was considered almost borderline insanity to film yourself studying; certainly a lapse of etiquette being caught doing so. It gives me relief though. When I look at myself from the inside-out, sometimes the situation looks dark, stuck, insurmountable. But from an outside perspective, suddenly, what seemed to be a problem, seems like no big deal at all.

The knees don’t go down to the floor, so what? The play with movements, the explorations, the sense of self, the awareness of gravity and leaning points, the discoveries, aren’t those the important things, the sparks of joy?

First words: freedom, love, reinforcement, elimination and selection

Baby: “/ʌ/ /ʌ/ /ʌːʌːʌː/ /ɜ/ /ɜ/ /ɜ/ /ʌ/ /ʌ/ /ʌː/ /ʌ/ /b/ /b/ /bb/ /bbb/ /b/ /bʌ/ /bʌː/ /bɜː/”

Mother: “Oh! Did you say, /ˈbɑːbɑː/ ?! /ˈbɑːbɑː/ !”

Baby: “/b/”

Mother: “/ˈbɑːbɑː/! /ˈbɑːbɑː/!”

Baby: “/bɑː/”

Mother: “OMG! /ˈbɑːbɑː/! Oh, aren’t you cute! OMG! Everyone come, quick! He said /ˈbɑːbɑː/!!”

Father: “Really? He said /ˈbɑːbɑː/? Let me hear it?! /ˈbɑːbɑː/! /ˈbɑːbɑː/!”

Baby: “/b/”

Over the past few years the Youtube Recommended algorithm presented me with numerous “How to learn any language in 3 months”, “How I learned to speak Italian in 48 hours“, and “The real science of language learning – a professor explains” videos. This led me to two things: 1. Search for a browser plugin that can hide Youtube Recommended 2. Wonder about how first language learning might really work.

Mobility games

Backstory

Over the past few weeks I sat on chairs (of all places) a lot, and didn’t do any sports or exercising. But instead I overworked my knees with a few demanding postures, and started to have some knee pain.

Therefore, I decided to take my own medicine, and moved along to my video „Do your hip-joints connect up?” [link] I only did the first 20 minutes and only worked with my right leg. But after getting up, to my surprise, my knee pain was gone.

Two days later I wondered what else I could do with the same movements, and whether I could game-ify the movements of my lesson. A classic balancing game came to mind. It’s called „Labyrinth”, which I have on both my iPhone and Apple TV. It occurred to me that I could try controlling this game with my feet instead of my hands — much like some people paint with their feet instead of with their hands. I gave it a try.

Day 1

On the belly, with knees bent, feet towards the ceiling. 

It took a couple of minutes to figure out how to play, but then it actually went quite well. I put on socks and slipped the Siri remote control in between the sole of my foot and the sock to secure it. Then the game was on. It was fun. 

However, afterwards, when I checked for any improvements in my left leg, I didn’t register much. Overall my left foot felt a bit softer and more supportive, and my left knee seemed a wee bit more comfortable as well, but by far not as much as with 20 minutes of my movement lesson of Somatic Education on Youtube.

Day 2

I liked the idea of playing a computer game with my foot, though. It was almost like magic to watch the ball on the screen move, without my hands involved. This reminded me of a prank I played on a fellow office worker back in the day when I was a Software Engineer: I placed my computer mouse under the table and controlled it with my foot, out of sight to my co-worker, and pretended to move the mouse pointer on the screen with the power of my mind.

I tried a new position: on the back, with one leg extended, its sole pointing toward the ceiling. This time I used a rubber band instead of socks to secure the remote control on the sole of my foot, which worked a lot better.

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Bok choy, was this a challenge. I knew my hamstrings were short—but with this game it really showed. I needed to do some auxiliary movements and some tricks first, just to get the soles of my feet level enough to be able to play.

But then I had a good gaming session, and completed the first 5 beginner levels with each foot. Twice.

Afterwards my legs felt a bit tired, but also light and more flexible than before.

Day 3

Today I was super excited to play the balancing board game again. In the evening I set myself up the same way as the day before: lying on my back, sole facing to the ceiling, with the remote control strapped to my foot with a rubber band.

Today the gameplay was smoother than yesterday. I could play more advanced levels. My nervous system seemed to already have learned and adjusted itself to the new gameplay style. Two things stood out:

  • Balancing was a lot more steady with my feet than with my hands. This really surprised me. My hands are faster and more flexible, but my feet more steady and more precise. Overall it seems like balance control in this game is better with my feet than with my hands.
  • My right leg is not only more flexible than my left, but my right foot is more “dexterous” than my left. This surprised me quite a bit. On the other hand, my left leg is my standing leg, and my right leg my moving leg. Obviously, there’s a handedness to the feet. Actually, no surprises there. But still, surprising to actually feel it as such a big difference.

After playing, my legs felt way more smooth and flexible, and going for a walk was a pleasure. l think this game might be able to solve my hamstrings „problem”. Stretching is out of this world boring to me, so that’s not an option, and I also get bored easily with lengthy Feldenkrais lessons for the hamstrings, but this game (I think) I could play 20 minutes to half an hour on several days a week, no problem.

Day 4 (morning time)

Yesterday evening I went to bed with limber legs and flexible hamstrings, and woke up with legs made from oak hardwoods. Interesting. Why is that? How come my body stiffens up its connective tissue overnight? Is this some kind of internal Settings reset? I mean, I welcome such tightening up for my facial skin, and neck, but for my hip joints and hamstrings… what’s the benefit of tightening up those areas?

Looking forward to play the balance game again tonight, I will keep us posted.

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