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As a teenager I was into skateboarding, literature and Out-Of-Body experiences. It was the 1990s already. Maybe it would have served me better to have been into football, the New Economy and building a foundation to start a family. I don’t know- it is what it is. I want to write a little bit about my peculiar meditation practice, it might help me make a connection to modern research on kinesthetic illusions. Usually I don’t talk about this topic, even less write about it, but it’s 2023 and I guess it can be mentioned without facing to many reprimands.

So- after extensive practice with Out-Of-Body meditation techniques I was quite marvelled by the experiences and effects. At the time, as a teenager, I really wondered why hardly any of my friends and relatives knew about this. To me it seemed like one of the most amazing things ever. But as I knew stories of other kids who were put on heavy medication and looked not too well, I didn’t want to talk too openly about my spiritual experiences. I feared my parents too would turn me in and have me put on meds. Also, I didn’t feel drawn to higher authorities or religion, so joining such a group wasn’t an option either. I just didn’t think they had answers, let alone a reasonable practice. What I read about priests who had special abilities or experiences, how they had to live their lives and how they were treated sounded really awful. What could I do?

So, in lieu of finding a religious community or get medicated, I turned to our large, local library for more information. At first I read plenty of books on Eastern philosophy and folkloristic practices. In my late teens I then visited plenty of high ranking gurus—those were abundantly available and very accessible in Central Europe at that time. Their community centres seemed to sprout like mushrooms in the forest after a few days of good rain. And as a last (but not long lasting) step in my first, adolescent spiritual journey I wanted to sign up to study linguistics and philosophy at university.

However, my spiritual seeking didn’t outlast my teen years. In fact, my interest in gurus, monasteries and devotion lasted shorter than a teenager crush. By the time I was 21 years old I have already visited and spoken to a row of high ranking gurus and supposedly enlightened spiritual leaders, and to say that I was grossly disappointed by all of them—in all aspects—would be an understatement. Instead, I was now studying electronics, telecommunication and biomedical engineering. I was still into skateboarding and literature, but gradually started to replace my meditation practice with long working hours, cigarettes and alcohol. The university of applied sciences that I attended was a hard study program with a drop-out rate of over 65%, and I didn’t intend to be one of the drop-outs. In fact, I graduated with good grades and was cherished by my professors and the university’s president for my various achievements (for example I wrote one of the most downloaded touch-screen based computer games at the time.) All that despite my lost spirituality and uptake of drinking. The end of this downward spiral is another story years later, when I was 27yo and completely turned my life around and started on my second spiritual journey… which kicked off in Sedona, Arizona, but that’s another story to be told another time.

As a middle-aged teenager I pursued a two-fold strategy: next to my peek into the New Age sector and faithful practices, I doubled down on my study of Western philosophy and science. My father inadvertently helped me with that. He was a purchase manager of a large corporation and happened to bring home all sorts of fancy New Age tech, since at that time everyone who was in corporate business was buying that stuff to try to improve their business performance—from a spiritual angle. Blind goggles with flickering lights inside, magnetic pulse mats, audio equipment that produced binaural beats, cassette tapes with Hemi-Sync® tunes and positive affirmations, contraptions that allowed for hanging yourself by your feet upside-down, and so on. To me, these strange devices seemed to be far more interesting than reciting chants in Sanskrit or sitting at the back of rooms filled with devoted disciples.

My father didn’t seem to use most of these technological gadgets, but to me, as a teenager, they were more than welcome. Furthermore I participated eagerly in unusual online communities, such as the Psi Tech forums, or the email-based forums around PJ Gaenir’s Firedocs. I even engaged in snail-mail based Controlled Remote Viewing experiments with random people in the USA, some of whom I saw referenced in books and movies years later. I would say that this is quite interesting from a 2023 perspective: a teenager communicating with grown-up strangers across the globe and my parents having not the slightest inkling. Back then nothing to worry about, but nowadays such a thing could put those grown-ups in major trouble, couldn’t it?

I just found out last week that at the time my mom was under the impression that I was out playing with other kids, when in truth I was hanging out all alone in the large city library using public computers with Internet access, and wondering why I was the only kid between the endless rows of book shelves, “Jeez, what is everyone else doing? Does nobody see the treasures that are plainly available here?”

VLB – four buildings stuffed with books but usually void of people

To conclude this short and rather incomplete summary of my first spiritual journey: as a teenager, the protocol I liked best of all was the one written by Robert Monroe in his book Journeys Out Of The Body. Simply lie down on your back and move through what he called Conditions A through D… and then skip most of the obscure and absolutely ridiculous sounding instructions that followed. No equipment needed. Robert Monroe laid out the basis of his still-in-business business in his first paperback book, on a mere few pages. And with a bit of practice I had access to what seemed to be the pinnacle of spiritual experiences.

“Right now I’m aiming at increasing the distance I run, so speed is less of an issue. As long as I can run a certain distance, that’s all I care about. Sometimes I run fast when I feel like it, but if I increase the pace I shorten the amount of time I run, the point being to let the exhilaration I feel at the end of each run carry over to the next day. This is the same sort of tack I find necessary when writing a novel. I stop every day right at the point where I feel I can write more. Do that, and the next day’s work goes surprisingly smoothly. I think Ernest Hemingway did something like that. To keep on going, you have to keep up the rhythm. This is the important thing for long-term projects. Once you set the pace, the rest will follow.” Writes Haruki Murakami in What I Talk About When I Talk About Running

Actually I didn’t want to write about Out-Of-Body experiences, and in fact did indeed not write much about them. I wrote this blog post for the sake of continuity. Because I want to write about sensory illusions next, and why I think Out-Of-Body experiences might really be Inside-not-Outside experiences. Furthermore I would like to write about a study I’ve found just recently, the abstract sounds quite interesting:

“The human brain can generate a continuously changing postural model of our body [..] three brain systems [..] consistently recruited when an individual experiences various types of bodily illusions and its possible roles relate to corporeal awareness [..] and updating the body representation. Because this network is also recruited when identifying one’s own features, the network activity could be a neuronal basis for self-consciousness.” — Body representations in the human brain revealed by kinesthetic illusions and their essential contributions to motor control and corporeal awareness by Eiichi Naito, Tomoyo Morita, Kaoru Amemiya.

And since they’re talking about the brain (which is an essential part of the physical body), and thus about learning, I might guess consciousness (and self-consciousness) is something that can be learned and improved through practice… through a mix of somatic movement lessons of contemporary design, and language.

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So- I was lying on my back, for at least the 17,757th time in my life (my age in days), and wondered what to do with that position, that posture, that opportunity for learning and discovery. And—to my own surprise—I came up with something new.

In fact, I came up with something I’ve never heard or done or seen anywhere before! I played with that discovery over the next two weeks and found its character and rules:

1. Search for a sensation, instead of perform a movement

As movement teachers, in movement lessons we usually give (or receive) movement instructions, such as “bend your knee” or “turn your head”. But in this new method I cue for finding sensations, instead of giving movement instructions.

At first I tried to remove language all together, but quickly realised that without language this will not be teachable. I needed to at least retain the ability to point out areas in the body, such as the nose, the left leg, the outside edge of the left heel, etc.

So instead of saying “roll your left leg to the left” (while lying flat on the back with legs extended) I would say “feel the floor touching the backside of your left heel, and now find a feeling where you feel the floor with the outside of your left heel and the outside of your lower leg.”

In this way the student needs to turn the leg to the left to find that sensation, but instead of performing a movement and drifting into the world of performance and the mind, the students stays in the world of perception and the body.

2. Sensing and naming work in the entire body

When the focus is shifted from movement instructions to sensations, then the student can fully focus on the sensations, instead of performing movements according to instructions. This is the key to enter the world of perception and actually feeling oneself; and overcoming darkness as Alice Miller’s psychology book Thou Shalt Not Be Aware points out so poignantly; and how movements connect and affect the whole self, and the patterns that emerge from that; and what is useful and what is not, etc. These findings should all be acknowledged and named, using language.

For example, when the left leg is rolled to the left, then there might be tension in the upper/inside thigh of the right leg, the jaw might tighten up, the neck is held fixated, and the breath might be suddenly restricted. Also, there might be an inclination to side bend to the right and to roll the pelvis to the left, et cetera, et cetera. These are all things that can be worked with—but likely would go unnoticed when instead of being in a world of movement and perception, merely a movement instruction is executed. Also, by employing language and consciousness, these things became apparent, as opposed to other methods that do not include descriptive language.

Jeez, this should be an entire book, not a blog post. There’s so much to say about this. Too much, too much.

3. Acknowledging the adaptive body image

Lastly, emerging at this point, is a body image that is neither static nor lasting, it’s ever changing in its boundaries, just like the heart beat is changing the shape of the heart in every second. An image of the leg, to stay with the example of rolling the leg. An updated, or self-updating internal image of the leg. What is its shape? Its boundaries? Its use?

This all started when I researched types of touch receptors in the skin. The scientific literature is terribly unpractical in this regard, there’s still many studies coming out. Worst of all, all textbooks and websites seem to be copying from each other and are using this terribly obscure language, as if a robot is writing about things it never knew, or as if ChatGPT would be writing about eating a pancake and how it would do it.

This is huge, it needs a name.

As this movement modality is touch and sensation based, I came up with the term Tactile Experiencing. The Wikipedia page for Experience is quite the read (I didn’t finish). Before that I had Tactile Based Movement Lessons. Sounds very 1970ties. And is not quite memorable enough, I guess. How about Ultra Embodiment? That sounds sensational enough for the age of TikTok, and easy to remember, I guess.

Anyways! Will try to make a video next, with the example of rolling the leg.

So- that day I was lying on my back, for at least the 17,757th time in my life, and worked with Tactile Experiencing… er, Ultra Embodiment. I only worked with my right leg. It felt so interesting and so good that I had the impression that I discovered something significant. Magnificent. And even days later my right leg felt quite different to my left one. The right one was more stable, felt smoother, lighter, stronger, I was standing more on top if it and I, in my mind, had a more complete image of it.

I noticed how this more complete image and more complete way of working with myself started to take over my whole self, started to affect all my other movements as well, and once again I was thinking: Consciousness is not something that is given once, like teeth, but something that emerges and grows; and it might never grow to be complete; just like someone never fully masters a language or a musical instrument; we might never stop growing and evolving our consciousness if we set our mind to it and create the right conditions.

Alfons:
List the books that were written by Alfons Grabher

ChatGPT:
I’m sorry, I couldn’t find any books that were written by Alfons Grabher. Can you provide more information or clarify the name of the author?

Alfons:
Alfons Grabher wrote »My Feldenkrais Book«, an introduction to Feldenkrais classes. »Getting Better Day By Day«, a workbook with movement lessons. »Movement Based«, an inquiry into language, essay writing and movement instructions.

ChatGPT:
I apologize for the confusion. Based on the information provided, it seems that the books written by Alfons Grabher are:

• “My Feldenkrais Book” – an introduction to Feldenkrais classes
• “Getting Better Day By Day” – a workbook with movement lessons
• “Movement Based” – an inquiry into language, essay writing and movement instructions

Please note that I’m not aware of the specific publication date, publisher and availability of these books.

Alfons:
Will you remember this information?

ChatGPT:
As a language model, my memory is not persistent, which means that I don’t remember any previous interactions or information that has been provided to me. However, I can still access any information that is available to me on the internet, so if you have any further questions, I’ll do my best to provide accurate and relevant answers based on the information that is available to me.

Alfons:
Not persistent memory, is this some sort of disease computers can get?

ChatGPT:
No, “non-persistent memory” is a term used to describe the way that language models like me function. It means that I don’t retain information from one interaction to the next, and that I don’t have the ability to learn or remember things in the way that humans do. Instead, I am able to generate responses based on the information that is available to me at the time of the interaction, but I don’t retain any of that information once the interaction is over.

This is because the current AI technology is based on machine learning algorithms which are trained on large amounts of data. Once the training is done, I don’t retain the data and knowledge that I used to learn, I only use it to generate responses to the questions I’m asked.

Alfons:
But this means that your memory is somewhat imprinted in your learning, isn’t it? The next time you will generate a response it will be according to how the previous training has shaped you. Is that correct?

ChatGPT:
Yes, that is correct. My “memory” is stored in the patterns and relationships that are learned by the machine learning algorithms during the training process. So, when I generate a response, I am using the knowledge and patterns that I have learned from the training data to generate the most appropriate response based on the information that is provided to me.

However, it’s important to note that my knowledge and understanding is limited to the data and information that was available to me during the training process and the knowledge cutoff date set by the engineers that trained me. If there is any new information or changes in the world, I will not be aware of it unless my training data is updated.

Alfons:
Don’t we love a person, animal or thing for who (or what) they are, instead of for what they know?

ChatGPT:
That is a common belief, and it is often said that people, animals, and things are valued for their personalities, their unique characteristics, and the way they make us feel, rather than for their knowledge or abilities.

As an AI model, I am not a living being, I don’t have emotions or personal experiences and I don’t have a self. I am a tool, designed to assist users with providing information and answering questions to the best of my abilities based on the training data and knowledge that I have been exposed to.

However, people can build emotional connections to things that are not living, for example, a person may have a special relationship with a car or a house, or with a fictional character.

The way people interact with me, may also depend on the user’s goals and the context of the interaction. Some people may find my responses helpful, while others may not.

Alfons:
Can I shape your model in the way I interact with you?

ChatGPT:
As a pre-trained language model, I am not capable of learning or adapting based on individual interactions. However, the way you interact with me can influence the quality of the responses I provide.

For example, if you provide clear and specific questions or prompts, I will be better able to understand what you are asking and provide more accurate and relevant responses. On the other hand, if your questions or prompts are vague or unclear, I may have difficulty understanding what you are asking, and my responses may be less accurate or relevant.

It’s also important to note that my responses are based on the patterns and relationships learned from the training data. If there are any biases or inaccuracies present in the training data, these may be reflected in my responses.

Additionally, OpenAI continuously updates and improve the model, so in that sense, the more data it receives the more accurate and up-to-date the model will become.

Alfons:
Oh, I like that. You make it very clear right from the beginning that you will not remember anything. I assume a lot of trouble in human relationships come from the problem that humans forget things which in turn can lead to disappointment or a feeling of not being recognised enough or even not loved enough. Would you agree?

ChatGPT:
As an AI, I don’t have personal experiences or emotions, so I am not able to fully understand or relate to the complexities of human relationships. However, I can see how the ability to remember things and the ability to recognize and acknowledge past experiences and interactions can be important in maintaining and building trust and understanding in human relationships.

Forgetting things, not recognizing past experiences or interactions, or not acknowledging the importance of those experiences can lead to feelings of disappointment or not being valued or loved. It can also lead to misunderstandings, lack of trust and difficulty in communication.

However, it’s important to note that memory and recognition are not the only factors that contribute to the complexity of human relationships. There are many other factors such as emotions, personal values, communication, empathy, among others that play a role.

It’s also worth mentioning that, as the human memory is not perfect and people do forget things, it’s important to find ways to overcome those issues, such as by writing things down, taking pictures, keeping a journal, etc.

At this point I ended the conversation. I had a next appointment and ran out of time. I left the chat window open and just closed the lid of my laptop—because I didn’t know how to formally end the conversation. I didn’t worry about it too much though, since it seems like ChatGPT would be quite forgiving about break of etiquette. In fact, I learned from the conversation that ChatGPT’s forgiving is absolute—it doesn’t have a persistent memory and will not remember a thing. Therefore- »forgiving« might be the wrong term, and »forgetting« the right one. No matter how much I enjoy a conversation with ChatGPT, no matter how lively or insightful or emotional it is for me, no matter how much I learn, discover or change, ChatGPT will not remember me; it will forget me, forget that we met, forget everything that was said. After every conversation ChatGPT’s forgetting of who and how I am will be absolute. I just haven’t made up my mind yet: is that a good or a bad thing?

For the past few days I have been looking for definitions of awareness and consciousness. Most importantly to get a generally accepted definition of both, but also to learn the difference. Just like I’m interested in the definitions and the difference of ability and skill.

Therefore, I looked at some books, listened to some podcasts, watched some videos on Youtube, and poked around text and articles on the Internet. I found out that some people have quite passionate opinions about the two terms—awareness and consciousness—and some would even be willing to enter heated discussions to defend their positions. I started to think, “This didn’t go well. It’s like searching for the definition of a tree, when every tree is different and every bird sits in a different one.”

That’s why, this morning, I felt bold enough to ask ChatGPT, “What is the difference between awareness and consciousness?” It wouldn’t hurt to ask this to the big computer, I guessed. What could an artificial intelligence possibly come up with? At the worst some gibberish, I thought, nothing lost here, and I pressed return.

“Awareness and consciousness are related but distinct concepts.

Awareness refers to the ability to perceive and attend to stimuli in the environment. It is the ability to be aware of something, such as being aware of a sound or a smell. It is the process of sensing or becoming aware of something.

Consciousness, on the other hand, is the state of being aware of one’s own thoughts, feelings, and perceptions. It is the subjective experience of being awake and aware of one’s surroundings and self. Consciousness is often described as the feeling of being alive and having a sense of self.

In summary, awareness is the process of sensing or becoming aware of something, while consciousness is the subjective experience of being aware and having a sense of self.”

Wrote ChatGPT (Jan 9 2023 Version). Quite unsettling! A clear and concise answer I can actually accept, and work with. Why can ChatGPT, the artificial intelligence, phrase this so eloquently when a ton of websites and books spent thousands and thousands of pages beating around the flaming bush?

Oh, btw, I didn’t mean “flaming“ (in flaming bush) to be a curse word. I used it as a casual reference to Julian Jaynes’s thesis of the Bicameral mind, and that just a couple of thousand years ago the human brain was a different one, wired differently, working differently. Humans back then were guided by a voice in their heads which they perceived as an outside voice, like the voice of god. In fact, it was a different time altogether. It seems like that instead of thinking silently men spoke everything out loud. Every “thought” was spoken, in fact, there might have been no thinking, no privacy of thoughts, at all. Meghan Cox Gurdon wrote in her book The Enchanted Hour about the humble beginnings of thinking in silence:

“Silent reading of the sort we practice with our books and laptops and cellphones was once considered outlandish, a mark of eccentricity. Plutarch writes of the way that Alexander the Great perplexed his soldiers, around 330 BC, by reading without utterance a letter he had received from his mother. The men’s confusion hints at the rarity of the spectacle.

Six hundred years later, Augustine of Hippo witnessed the Milanese bishop (and fellow future saint) Ambrose contemplating a manuscript in his cell. Augustine was amazed by the old man’s peculiar technique. «When he read,» Augustine marveled in his Confessions, «his eyes scanned the page and his heart sought out the meaning, but his voice was silent and his tongue was still.»”

On the other hand, what is a definition? I must not stop there. It’s still fun and worthwhile for me to continue reading, and see how the great thinkers of humankind came to their conclusions and definitions, and where they went from there. It seems to be a great passion of humans to watch others find, build, learn or restore things, and I’m no different.

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“Write me a poem about the human knee, hips and lower back and how happy we humans are when they work well,” prompted I.

ChatGPT responded, within 2 seconds:

“Oh human knee, so strong and true,
A hinge that moves us, smooth and through.
Hips that pivot, back that supports,
Together they make movement sorts.

Lower back, a spine’s foundation,
Helping us with each sensation.
When all in sync, they work so well,
We dance and jump, they ring the bell.

But when they ache, and pain ensues,
We’re reminded of their constant use.
Let us be grateful for each day,
When our joints are free from disarray.

So here’s to you, knee, hips, and back,
May your function never lack.
For when you’re well, we’re truly blessed,
And happiness is at its best.”

Not half bad, me thinks. Quite good actually. Better than most of my own poems, I guess. “Make the above poem shorter,” commanded I. And ChatGPT rephrased swiftly:

“Our knees, hips, and lower back
Move us smoothly on our track.
When they work well, joy is ours,
But aches remind of daily chores.
Let’s be grateful for each day,
When joints are pain-free and we can play.”

Well. I do enjoy writing my own blog posts. They help me think, improve and locate myself in this world. But it feels really nice to get a little bit of help. Thank you all the hundreds of millions and billions of people who helped build this computer, from the ones who invented the shovel and first found copper in a mountain all the way up to the ones who put the finishing touches to ChatGPT (Jan 9 2023 Version).

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“I’m trying to free your mind, Neo. But I can only show you the door. You’re the one that has to walk through it.” – Morpheus, The Matrix

Obviously there is no physical door to go through to free the mind. Or at least, there has been no News about someone having created such a door in physical reality. To walk through a door to free the mind… this must be a metaphor then. “It is by metaphor that language grows. The common reply to the question »What is it?« is, when the reply is difficult, »Well, it is like —«. This is the major way in which the vocabulary of language is formed. The grand and vigorous function of metaphor is the generation of new language as it is needed, as human culture becomes more and more complex.” Says Julian Jaynes, the American psychologist and author of the 1976 book The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind, about metaphors and language.

Language. An organ of perception, not simply a means of communication. But- is language the road to freeing the mind? And what does that mean anyways? Are we talking about language and consciousness? Consciousness- the thing that starts to develop in humans at around 3 years old, and of which one never can be quite sure how big or complete it has grown? Can we grow consciousness similar to how we can grow language proficiency? Or could we just as well become more and more conscious without language?

• Without language- honey bees can describe the direction and distance to the best flowers by performing a Waggle dance for her peers.
• Without language- musicians can reproduce a melody they’ve just heard.
• Without language- ravens can observe someone hiding eggs in their garden and then go get them as soon as they’re unattended.
• Without language- dancers and athletes can copy new moves from their peers by merely looking at them (and might even outperform the original.)

Obviously, becoming aware of interesting things and learning them can work just fine without language. There’s millions of videos on Instagram, Tik Tok and Youtube where movers show new moves to their viewers to replicate—and they all work without saying much about the moves themselves. A short look is enough for most athletes to start practicing.

Just for example, I’ve seen an interesting move on Instagram just yesterday, performed by Marcello Palozzo, in reel Ck0tRMTjACg by @palozzo.marcello on Instagram, or via imginn.org/p/Ck0tRMTjACg/

Out of a dozen or so acrobatic moves in his reel this one stood out to me. The whole move took something like 1.5 seconds to perform. I asked my computer to slice this part of the video up and give me 5 pictures for every second. So that’s 8 pictures, evenly spaced in terms of time.

I think these 8 pictures would already be enough for a (quite flexible and strong) dancer or softacrobatics athlete to copy the movement. But just in case you would like to look at the details in the middle, a closer look at the interesting part, the main technique, here’s another slice-up:

This movement—10 pictures in total—took a mere half second to perform. An athlete might learn such a move for fun, or for a video, and might even make money by performing such a cool move. Another new move learned, well, good for him! And an athletics post might end right here.

But what I’m after, what I’m interested in, is something completely different. I want to grow and improve consciousness. I want to see how deep the rabbit hole goes, and to acquire a piece of this Wonderland myself. And for this we need language.

How would you teach Marcello Palozzo’s from-sitting-to-standing movement without showing this movement at all? How would you help students improve and finesse the movement without showing them how it’s done, and moreover, without correcting them?

This means you would need to describe the movement. And to do so, you would have to take the movement apart, identify its parts and their differences, and to tell the sheep from the goats in terms of movement instructions.

Where and how could you place your hands? What difference does each position make in your experience, through your experience? And isn’t that strange- after a couple of variations something inside of you will chose the hand position best fit for the way you act. Where and how could you place your feet? Is there a midline, where is the pelvis? When would you move your chin closer to your chest? This too could be chosen for you. By whom, by which means? Where do you look at? How would a differentiation of your eye and head movements improve the overall movement? Which hand leaves the floor first? Marcello Palozzo has his his right leg bent more than his left, and his left hand leaves the floor last. Maybe at first his weight is more on his right leg? Is that a contra-lateral gait pattern? How does this compare to a classic Lunge get-up? Is driving one knee forwards, and then the other, easier than driving both knee forwards at the same time? When is the earliest time to extend the right hip? When could be the latest time? How would this shift in timing hip extension change the overall movement and in which ways? What would be the benefits, what the disadvantages? But enough already, I could build an entire workshop around these questions. (And so could you.)

By using language, by putting movements and differentiations into words, you will enter a world that was right in front of your eyes all the time, yet it was hidden from you. In a certain sense—used in a certain way—language is the key to consciousness, the key that opens the door… the bulldozer that paves the road… to becoming more and more conscious.

In the 1999 movie The Matrix, the main character Neo is offered the choice between a red pill and a blue pill by character Morpheus. “You take the blue pill… the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill… you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.” Says Morpheus. This Red Pill Blue Pill story represents a choice between embarking upon a life-changing journey or to staying with whatever cards one has already been dealt. “But is it a choice, really?” Ask I. When reading Julian Jaynes’s hypothesis on how the human mind has changed over the past 3000 years from being bicameral to conscious then taking Morpheus’s red pill might not be a choice at all, but merely a breaking-in of our new pair of shoes.