Yet thou must leave My earth still standing

Today somebody said to me, “before we had the vaccines, people were terrified to go out, they were completely without protection, they didn’t want to leave their homes”. Fearfully I agreed, “yes,” I said, “it was terrible”, I said. I changed topics.

Later I was thinking, “Where did religion go?” Don’t people believe in God anymore? In good faith? That gone? Does nobody believe in strength, heroism, in facing up to destiny? Does nobody raise his fist in rage fiercely up to the heavenly skies anymore? And does nobody weep bitter tears for feeling forsaken, don’t they cry out loud in despair anymore?

Hast du nicht alles selbst vollendet,
Heilig glühend Herz?
Und glühtest jung und gut,
Betrogen, Rettungsdank
Dem Schlafenden da droben?

Who helped me
Against the Titans’ insolence?
Who rescued me from certain death,
From slavery?
Didst thou not do all this thyself,
My sacred glowing heart?

Excerpts from the poem “Prometheus” by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

In the information age, are we or are we not, did Goethe’s Prometheus finally complete his angry struggle? And without his God, what has he found? Grateful thanks, to whom will he raise his voice? Whom will he listen to? Whom will he bow down to and in which hands will he trust himself, before he lies down to rest? Who will give him assurance that his hunger and thirst will be satisfied, his body lovingly cared for, and his distress not ignored?

I honour thee, and why?
Hast thou e’er lightened the sorrows
Of the heavy laden?
Hast thou e’er dried up the tears
Of the anguish-stricken?
Was I not fashioned to be a man
By omnipotent Time,
And by eternal Fate,
Masters of me and thee?

The time it takes to understand

Some background info:

In 1972, Moshé Feldenkrais was invited to teach for five-and-a-half weeks at the Esalen Institute in Big Sur, California. According to the book, „Esalen 1972 Workshop” by Feldenkrais® Resources, this workshop was sponsored by Esalen, and organized by psychologists Stanley Keleman and Will Schutz. Among the fourteen participants (by invitation only) were Judith Aston, Seymour Carter, Jack Downing, Betty Fuller, Richard Price, Frank Ottiwell, Ilana Rubenfeld and Judith Stransky. 

In a podcast between Larry Goldfarb and Judith Stransky, Judith Stransky talked about her memories of those classes:

11:21 (Judith Stransky) btw . when we started . there were no terms like Awareness Though Movement or Functional Integration . we have created those terms in that program . it was just called the Feldenkrais Method and it was called the group work and the private lessons 

35:55 (Judith Stransky) we said . you can call the group work Awareness Though Movement . and that seemed to be a no-brainer [..] Moshé just sat there and he didn’t say a word . he just let us talk about it [..] we were throwing out our ideas [..] then we had great difficulty finding a word for the individual work . the hands-on work . we thought . you know . different people came up with different terms and none of them seemed right . or appropriate . and then we said well the only term that seems right is the one that Ida Rolf already is using . which is Structural Integration . that is the most appropriate term we said to Moshé for your individual work . but we can’t use it because Ida Rolf is using it . and then somebody said . Functional Integration . and we all said yaaaayyy! . that’s it! . and Moshé just sat there passively . he didn’t say a word . so from then on those were the terms

Full interview here: https://mindinmotion-online.com/judith-stransky/

So, now, Functional Integration, its short form FI, is a wonderfully catchy term. But the greater public can’t use it because the International Feldenkrais Foundation (?) has trademarked those terms and only graduates from their training programs are allowed to call it Functional Integration when they do hands-on work in-the-style-of or inspired-by Moshé Feldenkrais.

Anyways. Now I’ve spent two hours on putting that together, and have not yet written a word of what I really wanted to write about. Silly me.

Notes, what I really wanted to write about:

How is the term „functional” used by movement professionals nowadays? As in functional movement patterns, assessment and screening. 

How is that different from movement that has meaning? As in words and actions that have meaning (to whom?) 

Wouldn’t the term „meaning”, as in the search for meaning and purpose through hands-on work, be more whole and complete, more appropriate? After all, we not only touch on the physical reality of the body, but we’re also including the ability to sense, to perceive, to feel and to think (and to apply good judgement and to weigh options probably?), and most of all, we touch on „how” we act in this world, the quality and style. Heritage and adaption. Wouldn’t „meaning” be a much better term than the rather cold sounding, technical term „functional”?

Why does anyone like anything?

„Every block of stone has a statue inside it and it is the task of the sculptor to discover it.” – Michelangelo

When it comes to moving the body there seems to be an unlimited variety of ways. For example: as a teenager I liked Skateboarding, but I didn’t like Tennis. I liked cranking my brother’s road bike over the nearby mountains, but I didn’t like playing Soccer (both of these sports were popular in my area). I liked to sometimes run alongside the lake in the rain, but I didn’t like Track & Field in school. I liked climbing from rock to rock at the local waterfall, but I didn’t like Rock Climbing.

Why do I like one thing over the other? And why do so many people like the same things? This makes me wonder… why does anyone like anything?

Movement patterns and behaviour acquisition studies

I was just thinking about how the political mandates of the past two years, which followed the recommendations of organisations like the CDC or FDA, basically canceled „non-essential” human touch from large parts of western civilisation.

Please allow me to not follow down that thought.

Instead, the thought that got me excited to write this blog post was this: functional integration, this peculiar way of human interaction and physical study, is like language learning. You can’t just do it to a person. The person is a student, and the student needs to have an interest and a desire to study.

It can be as beautiful as a walk in the park together, where you elaborate on a topic and each other’s backgrounds add to a greater, actionable understanding. Problem solving, but also creative exploration and building foundations, new patterns, new perspectives, refined internal images. Learning, a pleasurable experience as close to the human soul as love and trust and empathy.

The third thought I had while opening my notepad was about the term „functional integration”. Here again, we have the unfortunate situation that an organisation, in this case the IFF (International Feldenkrais Foundation), acquired trademarks for this kind of human interaction and put them under their EULA (End User License Agreement), thus basically rendering the terms useless to the general public. This too, is not a pleasant thought to follow, so please pardon my silence. Maybe, a more useful thought, or question, would be: what terms can we use instead?

The squat – a road to recovery

„Specialisation in a limited range of acts is the most difficult adjustment for humans to make.” – Moshé Feldenkrais

Summary: with my new series „From The Ground Up”, I fell freshly in love with the lessons inspired by Moshé Feldenkrais. However, I overworked my knees and felt some instability and discomfort. Therefore, I tried stability and strengthening exercises from the world of fitness. Turns out, in the light of my new series, I enjoy doing isolated exercises such as Tibialis Toe Raises, Hamstring Curls or Triceps Push Ups. In fact, with the background of Feldenkrais lessons these strengthening exercises make me feel quite  excited about exercising. My knees, legs and spine are on a road to recovery. As a result, my next video in this series will be a Somatic strengthening workout.

Allow me to bring your attention to three distinct ways to squat down. They look kind of similar, but are bio-mechanically distinct from each other.

Each of the squats start out in standing. Then the legs are bent in the knees, ankles and hip joints to lower the pelvis downwards.

In the first variant, the sit-bones are lowered to target the mid-foot, and the knees are driven forwards all the way to lean on the floor.

In the second variant, the sit-bones are lowered to target the back of the heels, while the knees are driven forward. This is the Asian squat (to the best of my ability as of now).

In the third variant, the sit-bones are lowered backwards to sit on the platform of a chair. The knees do not pass over the toes.

When I first opened my studio in Austria, in 2013, many of my clients presented with difficulties to sit down on a chair gracefully—and even more to come back up to standing again. Therefore, I focused mainly on this type of squat, where the head is the counter balance to the behind, and the behind searches for the chair, and the knees don’t travel forwards much. This is a movement that can be done even if the space between a table and a chair is very narrow. I also created a couple of Youtube videos about this type of squat-to-sit down and backwards on a chair.

So to speak, I focused solely and exclusively on this one way to squat down and back up, the squat to sit on a chair, and I focused all of my research and teaching on this.

However, slowly, over the years, and without me even noticing, I forgot about the other ways to squat down.

As a dire consequence, over the years, I felt stiffness creep into my back and knees and hip joints and toes… but I never thought much of it. Strangely enough, with stiffness in-and-around my joints came not only discomfort, but also instability. While one would think that stiffness inherently would make a joint more stable.

A passage written by Moshé Feldenkrais, from his book Body And Mature Behaviour, comes to mind. I paraphrase:

Specialisation in a limited range of acts is the most difficult adjustment for humans to make. For example, a strong teenager with perfect feet will find it difficult to stand still for long periods of time, whereas a flat-footed, old guard might find it easy. But the former can jump and run, while the latter suffers aches and pains in doing so.

In his book Moshé Feldenkrais added a second example to drive home his point. I paraphrase again:

If someone uses his eyes as people did in the past, for example to look at the horizon, at people in the distance, at the immediate environment, at his body and at his work, his eyes did go through the complete range of their capacity, and occasional ignorance of the proper use of his eyes had no chance to cause real harm.

However, when someone uses his eyes as we do nowadays, to focus on a smartphone or computer screen for hours on end, day after day, it puts an extreme demand on the eyes by excluding all functioning in favour of a particular act. Some muscles, as well as nerves and cells in the higher centres of the nervous system, are overworked, while others must be constantly inhibited. Only a few people who make such specialised use of their eyes will succeed in preserving good overall functioning, while most people will be unable to get normal service from their eyes in any other use.

We might hear people say that their incapacity is due to lack of exercise. But with this example we see that any training may be worse than no training at all; for the eyes that stare at screens do not lack exercise, yet the eyesight deteriorates steadily. The way we use our eyes to stare at screens adapts them most perfectly to this particular use only, but renders them almost useless for other purposes.

Butt back to the topic of squatting:

Kenneth Williams Interviews Stephen Fry

Just recently, in response to one of my dear patrons, I started a new Youtube series, which I called „From The Ground Up”. This series is comprised of lessons not often seen in public Feldenkrais classes. They are somewhat a bit more advanced, more demanding, a bit more exotic than what is usually taught to the general public. Or maybe, they are just stronger, like fruit sirup is stronger than fruit juice.

Historical note: the original theme that inspired me for this series is called „heels-under-pelvis” (not „knees-over-toes” as I mistakenly wrote in my last post), and has been taught and recorded by Moshé Feldenkrais around 1955, in his studio in Alexander Yanai Street in Israel, lesson numbers 190-197.

Link to the „From the Ground Up” series on Youtube

Much to my own surprise, with this new series I started to see all the things I’ve not been doing with my knees, my feet, my hip joints, and with my spine.
It was only with this new Youtube series „From The Ground Up”, that I remembered. And at the same time I came to realise in what a bad condition my knees, my toes, my hip joints, and my spine actually are.

I indeed think it was my limited and strongly specialised use of self, that led to my discomfort and limited range of motion. I always only squatted backwards, to sit on a chair, and almost never squatted down, to an Asian squat, or forwards, to kneel and sit on my heels. Unknowingly, I chose to limit my movements to particular patterns, and forgot about all the other options.

But this has changed now, thanks to my new series.

I think most of all, this new series gave me an inroad to myself again. It opened me up to work on myself again. It gave me a handle, a grip.

This series is the ear of a sticker that serves as the bit I can grab to peel the sticker off the sheet its stuck to.

This series is the spark that made me look around to see what others are doing. It is my encouragement to explore and to include strength training again. To do fitness exercises such as Hamstring Curls in the gym, or to do daily Tibialis Toe Raises, like I briefly did in my „Healthy Happy Feet” series, or Triceps Push Ups in between two chairs, or Nordic Curls and Reverse Nordic Curls at home with my feet stuck under my couch.

My new series leads me to try new things, and to move in ways I haven’t moved in years. It made the difference between lying down, sitting, standing, and walking smaller again.

It is the box of a puzzle that doesn’t miss single pieces. It is my red thread of Ariadne that leads me through the maze. It is my joy, my map, and with your ongoing support it is my calling.

I guess I’m in love with this new series.

p.s. The pelvis can not only go down, but also up. That would be Heel Raises in standing. It can be jumping. But the pelvis can also go left and right, and twist, and side bend, and we can do all that standing on one leg, or sitting on one butt-cheek, or while being upside-down in a headstand… and here we have the story of the thousands of lessons of Moshé Feldenkrais.

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Dearly missed (legs)

Wow, what a ride! How did we go from the film Casablanca to What’s Eating Gilbert Grape to Spider-Man?

Also, I like how George RR Martin wrote about vampires in his novel Fevre Dream. His vampires are not created by the blood of another vampire, but his vampires are a species of their own, truly carnivorous humanoids, who procreate through copulation. One of the characters of the book is the archetype of an age old vampire, Damon Julian, hundreds of years old, whose suffering of longevity is so great that it sucks you right into the dark pit that he has in place of a soul. Maybe cuddling with homo sapiens’ inability to cope with more than a few decades of existence is what made Deadpool (2) one of the highest-grossing films ever?

Now, legs. The two things down there that walk us from the living room to the kitchen. Or so they seem when I look at scientific studies about walking.

Enter my latest video series “From The Ground Up” on Youtube [link]. An update on how we think about our legs. Or probably, about ourselves, the deeper we get into this series.

From books and motivational movies I have concluded that a leg (or both) can be cut off and the patient can live just fine, be living very successfully and socially active even. Youtube showed me a radiantly happy person without arms and legs who became a motivational guru and millionaire, loved by everyone.

But that’s not what I have seen in real life.

I’ve traveled through Cambodia and I’ve seen what land mines did to people. And even less spectacularly so, I have learned from my own life, as well as my clients and immediate environment, that even a slight negligence, a minor disturbance in the use of the legs, seemingly insignificant shortcomings of the integration of the legs into the whole self, can have major impacts on the whole self. To use the legs properly, and joyfully, and creatively, can be the difference between someone who still climbs their apple trees in their garden at age 79, and someone who ages fast and falls into disability early.

Amputation and disability is the worst case scenario that would surely bring down most people. I guess only the strongest of the most resilient are able to cope with such loss.

But even less spectacularly so, fascia that does not slide to the best of their ability, even if it is just around the knees or ankles, undifferentiated movements of the arches of the feet or ankles, such seemingly small things, surely overlooked by most professionals and laymen alike, can put the strongest body into disability; and maybe then it’s not only that body that’s disabled, but it’s the soul that’s left in the dark, the soul that does not even know the reason for its suffering, and therefore is suffering the most.

How did we go from dancing wild and free to choreographed to isolated movement strength training?

Video credits:

California Jubilee in “Let’s Twist Again”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MggQSspSGU8

Twist, Twist |Beginner|Line Dance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IM_hXVBMm5I

Knee Range of Motion Solutions From The ATG System!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMRPJmkbSVI

Availability of movement

graceful
smooth
fluid

effortless
easily available
without or with little resistance

wrestled
hard-forced
not available